Wednesday 18th of February

I'm gonna have a gig in Stockholm on Friday and I'm so excited. Usually I tend to get a little nervous a few days before a show, but this week I've been surprisingly calm… that was until tonight.

For the first time in a while, I had a nightmare. I dreamed about the concert on Friday.

My nightmare went like this: I went up on stage. I was nervous, and I started singing the first song on my setlist. Immediately I forgot a bunch of lyrics and nervously walked around the stage. When I started playing the second song, the whole crowd started talking to each other… and one by one, they walked out.

The nightmare was at its peak when I stood there on stage, singing in front of no one. In my dream I started crying, and then suddenly I woke up.

I was so relieved that it was only a dream. Plus, I woke up to the most amazing weather today. I hate the winter, but I'm okay with the cold. Actually, I can really enjoy the cold if the sky is blue and the sun is out. And luckily for me, that's what I woke up to today.

Today was my first day off in quite a while. I've been taking on a lot of shifts at work the last couple of weeks, so it felt sooo good to sleep in today.

Hopefully I can start having music as a full-time job soon. But for now, I'm pretty okay with having a side job. I actually think it's good for me. Pretty much all of my time away from work goes to thinking about music and my career. Having to focus on my tasks at work grounds me. And I honestly think it's good for my mental health to not think about myself 24/7.

I have a weird obsession with sodas and energy drinks. Yesterday I tried a new Red Bull — it was pretty good, but not my favorite. It didn't really taste like cherry… and as a cherry lover, I was a bit disappointed.

I'm also thinking about what I should wear on Friday. I've got two dresses to choose from: the black one I've been wearing to pretty much all of my concerts, and the grey one, a new one I just bought. Mmm… I'll think about it until tomorrow… or actually, I'll bring both to Stockholm and decide there :)

Also, we're actually driving to Stockholm. My band and I are leaving at 5 in the morning on Friday. Even though I'm gonna be dead, it's gonna be fun having a road trip with the band.

My plan is to get drunk on energy drinks (it's so cheap in Sweden) and then I'll be good for the show! Haha.

Anyway, that was it for today.

Talk to you soon.

Love,

JOA